Monday, September 04, 2006

Bittersweet

This is the first year that I've ever really processed this thought - this time of the year is the only time in which I find myself sad to leave a season, but very excited for the next season. Every other time of the year, I'm either obviously bummed, or obviously pleased with the change - but now I'm going from really great to really great - but all in different ways. This summer was spectacular for us, but the upcoming coziness of fall and direct lead-in into the holidays has always been a wonderful time for me. If it weren't for school starting, I think I could let go of summer easier, but, the regiment of the school year and having our lives once again revolve around its schedule and expectations is a hard pill to swallow. I've heard many moms say they are so happy to send their kids off again - normally, I would fall into that camp. When it's just Brayden and Mikayla around the house, their arguing and self-centeredness can push me over the edge quickly. But, with Michele's kids here, there's been none of that. They are a "pack" and that brings different challenges, but most of the time, the pack is just interested in having fun and running around being happy. Tomorrow. Michele's kids hit the public school system for the first time ever, - mine, the following day. There's a loss of innocence, playfulness, embracing the joys of carefree childhood with that. But, that's reality, and the other necessary, not always so fun, part of growing up and being responsible. Sometimes, having to watch your kids grow up, well, it's bittersweet.........

3 comments:

HollieHobbie said...

aaaawww My sentiments exactly. We had a great summer too and it is very bittersweet ending it, watching the kids go into another grade, yet heading into another beautiful season. BTW I used to hate Fall because it just got in the way of Summer and Christmas, but because of you, Steph, I have come to really like the season. And because of Emma recently telling me that it is her favorite season, I am going to put my best foot forward to make it special!

StephieAnne said...

And that you will undoubtedly do, Hollie. BTW - I just recently found your Christmas post, that's so you! I look forward to catching up with you when you come up in November!

chele said...

SIGH.....
This is the heartfelt sentiment coming from the former homeschool mom sending her kiddos out in the big world of public school for the first time.
We labelled their supplies, packed their snack, dressed them up, ate a big breakfast, took their pictures, and then I let them go...
I really love the school. Their fabulous teachers seem to be direct answers to their prayers. The classrooms are terrific. Even the kiddos I met look like potential great friends. So why are tears streaming down my face this very moment???
Sigh.....
If they can do it - so can I. God would not provide me with such great peace about this decision if it were not the right one. But Oh Lord - please preserve their innocence... please Lord, make my children a light to others so that they positively influence their peers without negatively being influenced themselves. And Lord, make me a partner now in this educational process so that the burden can be shared and enjoyed by others.
Ellie summed it up well as we got in the car. "Mommy, what are we going to do now?"
Good question sweetheart. I think I'll start by giving her a big hug.