February Funk

I'm BORED. I know, that's a terrible thing to say, there are so many things I could be doing to benefit this world than complaining about my current emotional state of laziness....., but that's where I'm at. In the middle of summer, I will look back longingly on this kind of weekend and wish for time just like this. But, right now, I'm wishing for some sunshine, some planned activities, and a family healthy enough to leave the couches.

Michele called yesterday singing a little tune, "It's Beginning to Look a Lot Like Spring" - however, it just served to annoy me because (as is often the case) while she woke to brilliant blue skies and warming temperatures, we were locked in a fog bank with temps hovering around a balmy 34 degrees. John woke up feeling pretty strong and went outside to take down the Christmas lights, then came in, crashing to the sofa, having overdone it. The guy hardly moved from that position all day long. (He's fighting a pretty nasty cold, and now is not a time that he can take time off work to recuperate fully). Fortunately, Brayden had a basketball game yesterday which I took him to, and then was invited for a long playdate at a friends, so I didn't feel like his day was completely empty - however, Mikayla did get the short end of the stick. You could tell she was very bored too.

This would be a cozy thing for me to have if I didn't feel like it's what we've been repeating for the last couple of months. There comes a point when a cozy fireplace, beanbag, good book, and favorite tv re-runs just doesn't fulfill anymore. That's where I'm at. Throw in a general gnawing dissatisfaction with the lack of progress I feel like I'm achieving despite all of my best efforts with both my complexion and weight, it's just kind of leaving me in a funk. I need a good hike at a roaring waterfall, a trip to the beach, or something. But, then, I think, I'm blessed enough to have gotten these get-aways often, and still, here I am, complaining. Pretty much, I need an attitude make-over. I need to dive into a good devotional book, stop waiting for the world to entertain me, and perhaps try a little Atkins to tackle the plateau my body seems to feel very safe to keep my weight at. (Wouldn't want to starve during these cold winter months, so it's important not to lose that spare tire of "security fat" around my waist).

I'm beginning to wonder if I shouldn't be a little more aggressive about making plans for when the kids are in school. At least during the months of January and February. Man, am I seasonal.......