Running on Fumes

First of all - major oversight on my part. When I posted about "High School Musical on Stage" I forget about mentioning why we got to go in the first place. Thank you Uncle Jeff and Aunt Laura! As a Christmas present they had gotten us tickets to a play that ended up getting cancelled. So, this is the performance we chose to watch as a family instead. I feel like a big dufus for not giving thanks for that earlier.


I think it was just about a year ago that I submitted a post about recognizing my need for "alone time" to rejuvinate. It was on a Saturday where John took off for a "day camping experience" and I cleaned house - re-organizing my living space as well as my thoughts. Funny how sometimes things become so "seasonal" - or in this case, annual. Because, I am in desperate need of alone time right now.

As the title points out, I feel like I'm running on fumes when it comes to my interactions with other people right now. I feel completely, socially, run-down and in no way "authentic" when speaking to people. This evening, at church, greeting people was truly a chore for me, there's just nothing left to give out.

This is all fantastic timing as we have a group camp-out beginning tomorrow and John's reunion Saturday night. I better resurrect some extrovert reserves pretty darn quick.....In the meantime, I'll rely on sugar, caffeine, ample sleep, and the beauty of nature to offer their mecidinal therapies, and hopefully, be a pleasant person to be around.

I need to reiterate that this is just a "me thing" and not a red flag for me being depressed or in a big fight with anyone - it's just as I described last year, I'm more introvert in nature and eventually, without some good "down time" I'm going to wear out. I think the recent posts have made it clear that that has not been happening lately (down time). In fact, one of my favorite moments this week was simply watching "Kyle XY" with John (fun show). We haven't sat and watched tv together in the evening in a while, and it was comforting to me to return to that normalcy with him - and I've found myself wishing that's all we could do again. But, alas, it is the height of summer, with many weekday and weekend demands - almost all promising fun and festivity. So, "get over it, Steph", be thankful for the wonderful people that surround you, and pray that Sunday John might feel the desire to take the kids solo to the "picnic" aspect of his reunion so I can finally get my day of refreshment........